KIDS Part:2

Stupid, perverted, eccentric or whatever u may call it, i just recalled another dream i had had a year ago and it occured to me that it couldve been the sequel of the dream i told u guys about in my last "KIDS" post,my subconscience probably figured a mind game would do me good these days.

The setting: a beautiful garden of lillies and orchids which apparently was my home cuz my adorable fair-coloured children where playing merrily, giggling with delight.i was reading a book sitting on a bench and was interrupted by a dear friend of mine, cosy as we were chit-chatting, i felt a weight entouring my neck..some kind of cord..i spread two fingers along its length and in a split second..it was over..all i could see was darkness.i woke up with palpitations and realized i already had my fingers carrassing where the rope wouldve been tightening on me.Wait..theres more..there actual were sound effects and i got my butt beat to a soundtrack lol.

Over Iftar i told my friends about my stark realization that this possibly could be the sequel etc.One of them thought.."mm blond kids..dark dad..uve been fooling around eh?" the other asked "so the newborn..was it a he or a she?" well according to some dream analysing book, a he in a dream is bad luck, a she is good luck..i wouldnt care anyway i dont believe in this stuff.But i laughed at my own assumption..My hubbie mustve found out and vowed to take revenge loooool

After all said and done, i came up with the split conclusion
i must have some fucked up subconscience loooool

ttyl all

KIDS

I had a dream last night, a strange one.I was in a hospital bed after id just given birth to the most adorable lookin creature on earth,thts how it hit me that was a dream cuz my genes couldnt possibly do that lol.I also had a different family around me, which scared me.Apparently this wasnt my only child, there was a chubby blond (yes u heard me BLOND) little baby by my side, about 2 yrs old who spoke to me so fluently i had to double check it was a baby:)i was in excruciating pain, however i had a radiant smile on my face..i hugged the baby..then blank.
I didnt think about the significance of the dream nor did i decide to analyse anything..but one thing i was sure of is that i wasnt ready, i dont have enough info nor basis to start off with.

There should be more public awareness about to raise and educate children.Some sort of organization should gather the best sociologists, psychologists and psychiatrists even nannies in town and let them brainstorm their way to an objective campaign tailored to the circumstances and false beliefs the country has lived in for as long as i remember.No one ever said raising a child, dealing with adolescence, guiding him as a stubborn adult would be easy at all, but if u have no clue..u should prolly be working on that before thinking of having any..
Let's face it, we need to take this a lil more seriously.For instance disciplining someone is NOT only associated with verbal abuse or physical menace..it may work for a while but later u need to be a lil more innovative before the rebellion notion is born and starts to bloom.You also have to accept the fact that they will grow up, they will experiment untold secrets of their own, they will make mistakes(plenty of em) which they obviously know are wrong in the 1st place..No one is perfect.one has only to take a glimpse in the mirror to be reminded over and over again, so why should we expect our children to be?Why rnt there any tactics in dealing with those going thru vulnerable, confusing phases bearing in mind they are the ones we hold dearest.Im not saying its not love that guides parents to work hard to raise their offspring, im jst saying this energy needs to be properly directed and transferred.

Educate and nourish ur kids..just dont strangle them.They were created thru u and not by u so dont control them as a posession.
oh well back to the real world.im hittin da books

Lessons Learnt

So im losing track of time,track of my youth.mm..so how long has it been again? 6 yrs goin on 7.wow..and what have we learned? Allow me:
1.Fraud:countless times forging the attendence list
2.Greed:grades grades grades...cut throat competition and trust me it aint a clean one
3.Selfishness:Me, me and noone else but ME!(scale of 1-10..team spirit in my country is closer to a -8)
4.Apathy:RULES..mind atrophy..on our way to the top of the integrated animal functions:memorization)
5.Indifference:not much to say here..that would be cuttin in too deep
6.Morphological turnover.i.e UGLIER AND UGLIER
7.Expliotation:your connections,your daddys connections,your distant relatives' connections.
8.Advanced level courses in SUCKIN UP to the big guys..who accordingly treat u like the germs that grow on scum..some perverted sense of joy in inflicting pain and humiliation to the younger ones..no matter how hard they work their butts.
9.Anhedonia:loss of fun in performing activities that formerly made u happy(soo true)
10.Constant whining-no action taken(passive bastards)
11.the "If Only.." epidemic..eventually transfroms into a chronic trait.everlasting.
12.Loss of creativity:cant even find it to put in some lines here.."err..blank"
13.loss of Hope, of foresight, of the "pouvoir de dire NON"
14.Destructive criticism..y nada mas

Theres pleeeeenty of more where that came from..im just too miserable to highlight more..got yet another problem ahead..exams..i never thought id say this but i am scared..and most of all of being beaten by the corrupted worthless system, of breakin my spirit and losing my ambition.Yet another month to go thru..i wonder if i could...