Lessons Learnt
So im losing track of time,track of my youth.mm..so how long has it been again? 6 yrs goin on 7.wow..and what have we learned? Allow me:
1.Fraud:countless times forging the attendence list
2.Greed:grades grades grades...cut throat competition and trust me it aint a clean one
3.Selfishness:Me, me and noone else but ME!(scale of 1-10..team spirit in my country is closer to a -8)
4.Apathy:RULES..mind atrophy..on our way to the top of the integrated animal functions:memorization)
5.Indifference:not much to say here..that would be cuttin in too deep
6.Morphological turnover.i.e UGLIER AND UGLIER
7.Expliotation:your connections,your daddys connections,your distant relatives' connections.
8.Advanced level courses in SUCKIN UP to the big guys..who accordingly treat u like the germs that grow on scum..some perverted sense of joy in inflicting pain and humiliation to the younger ones..no matter how hard they work their butts.
9.Anhedonia:loss of fun in performing activities that formerly made u happy(soo true)
10.Constant whining-no action taken(passive bastards)
11.the "If Only.." epidemic..eventually transfroms into a chronic trait.everlasting.
12.Loss of creativity:cant even find it to put in some lines here.."err..blank"
13.loss of Hope, of foresight, of the "pouvoir de dire NON"
14.Destructive criticism..y nada mas
Theres pleeeeenty of more where that came from..im just too miserable to highlight more..got yet another problem ahead..exams..i never thought id say this but i am scared..and most of all of being beaten by the corrupted worthless system, of breakin my spirit and losing my ambition.Yet another month to go thru..i wonder if i could...
1.Fraud:countless times forging the attendence list
2.Greed:grades grades grades...cut throat competition and trust me it aint a clean one
3.Selfishness:Me, me and noone else but ME!(scale of 1-10..team spirit in my country is closer to a -8)
4.Apathy:RULES..mind atrophy..on our way to the top of the integrated animal functions:memorization)
5.Indifference:not much to say here..that would be cuttin in too deep
6.Morphological turnover.i.e UGLIER AND UGLIER
7.Expliotation:your connections,your daddys connections,your distant relatives' connections.
8.Advanced level courses in SUCKIN UP to the big guys..who accordingly treat u like the germs that grow on scum..some perverted sense of joy in inflicting pain and humiliation to the younger ones..no matter how hard they work their butts.
9.Anhedonia:loss of fun in performing activities that formerly made u happy(soo true)
10.Constant whining-no action taken(passive bastards)
11.the "If Only.." epidemic..eventually transfroms into a chronic trait.everlasting.
12.Loss of creativity:cant even find it to put in some lines here.."err..blank"
13.loss of Hope, of foresight, of the "pouvoir de dire NON"
14.Destructive criticism..y nada mas
Theres pleeeeenty of more where that came from..im just too miserable to highlight more..got yet another problem ahead..exams..i never thought id say this but i am scared..and most of all of being beaten by the corrupted worthless system, of breakin my spirit and losing my ambition.Yet another month to go thru..i wonder if i could...
posted by Cleopatrina at 2:23 PM
8 Comments:
6 or 7 years of what? Med School? :D
OK..so I hear u..I understand u..I feel u.And I feel much more, but I don't think it turned out to be that bad.I agree on many of the points u have there, like greed, apathy, constant whining...that's all true. But 2 things are worth commenting on:
1-Fraud:Most of the time those so-called professors didn't even care to get their asses to Elkasr EL3einy for their lectures!! U see, it doesn't pay half as much as private work!To hell with doing your job, with teaching generations, with good conscience!
2-Anhedonia:it's very true, but NOT because we stopped caring altogether, it's because we grew up.We care, but for a different cause now. Whatever made us cheerful at the age of 18 just doesn't fit when at 23, and not only so, we've had direct and real contact with the world; the poor people, the sick children and the inhumane conditions..u know too much for ur age, u can't be like anyone else (apologies to non-doctors).
Do u imagine yourself sitting in a beauty salon, spendig hundreds on ur nails when only the day before u were suturing a kids' forehead!??
Would u rather waste ur time chatting with ur 'girlfriends' over coffee, or practising plastic suturing,so that the next patient will have a better looking scar?!
Listen, girl, I am actually happy I've come all this way. I don't want to be on the social side bench, but if it were to be because I don't have it in me to play that game everyone else's got their eyes glued to (ie tafaha), it would be my pride.
P.S. I need to clarify one last thing: going through med school produces a physician. Becoming an all-around good person, takes more than that..and cleopatrine here, she's an all-around meya meya ;)
shooot..thanks teeny me blushes bigtime.
i do agree about us being different, us battling and being exposed to the real egypt in need.Im happy i chose to be a doctor..its not the point i was trying to shed light on.The problem is way graver.Out of 1800 students per generation, how many end up competent physicians?and how many end up killing and how many end up fuckin up the lives of poor ppl just cuz theyve no medicolegal rights.We came, we saw we know the flaws, the corruption..we cant just stand here and watch while more and more patients are abused, while we are deceived into gettin a proper education and get paid peanuts for enduring humiliation.
Again im talkin about medicine in Egypt and not medicine as a rule.Cuz hell my whole life ive wanted to be a doc.a good one though, not the "el doctora" ra7et we gat etc.We do have info but admit it every other country on earth accknowleges their mistakes and works on fixin it.All we do here is battle eachother for more posts "3ameed, wazeeer..wakeel..lelsob7" but who gives a rat's ass about the welfare of our ppl?
anyways.we never know..only God does but i still think we should be silent no more.Time for a reform
I haven't yet finished commenting on this post and you go and produce another!!! Anyway,Here's what I have to say, but before I do, let me clarify that cutthroat competition is a fact in every country there is, it's not exclusive to us..including bribes, asafeen and the whole deal.They don't start as early as we do though (1st day of med school)
So you are demanding reform and medicolegal rights here? That's all good, but nearly impossible. Your best shot is raising awareness, but trying to establish a system to protect the lives of the patients, I am sorry but you'll raise war against yourself, an ugly one too. Another point is,how do u expect to have generations of 'good' doctors when u know for sure that the system of education is a failure!?Take a look around ur class of graduating doctors, how many are competent? And u'd hope emteyaz would replenish them? eb2y ableeny
Let me just wrap this up, I don't mean to put u down, I have thought before of changing the current state and the voice in my head talks wisdom to me; work hard and establish yourself as a reputable human first then try reform. This way u'll benefit and others too, because u'll have grounds to start preaching reform, that is your own success.
utopian wala eh?
i agree teeny gal..However i diagree with the waiting till i establish myself as a good doctor or a good person.Both me and u know itll take years and years.Thats the whole problem with teamwork here.Its not like wer the only ones who know its a fucked up system, nor are we the only ones who thought out some sort of reform.Its the lack of coordination, synchronization and awareness.I believe even if we dont make a stark change, we should do all whats in pur power.If u cant beat them, at least die trying and when confronted with ur creator answer back that u had a clear conscience and tried all ur might.
Realistic is good though, but settin a realistic plan,well organized and shielded would be worth a shoot before losing hope..
we could do this..together
yes we can but I keep no secret, I fear the corrupt system will get the best of our youth!:S
looool
Dont worry about our youth, if we havent gotten the best out of it all these yrs,khaly corruption yewareena nafso
i love your blog...please post more often.
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